"i wish i was there to tell you not to chase the boys, i wish i was there to hold you when they broke your heart, i wish i was you father." Benjamin Button

Last night i finally watched The Curious Case of Benjamin Button. as i watched how he was thrown away by his own father cause of his different figure and was took care by a old persons home care taker. as he rows younger, his loved ones get older one by one and start leaving him.
his story was told by Caroline, daughter of Daisy, who was Benjamin's first and only love. their love are truly inspiring. how she stood by him even until he was a baby and died. it broke her heart when he went away.
and it brought my tears flowing down my face when in the end Caroline that he was her father. not having to ever known my biological father, the postcard brought me to a sensitive spot in my heart.

Dad, wherever you are, know that a young lady is out here wondering if you ever knew i had exist. and wondering too if you did know, why did you ever leave me? not that i am not forever thankful for the fathers i have growing up, and mom that never gave up on me, considering the many fights we ever had.
hopefully when i seek you one day, not to ask for anything other than an explanation.

know that i'll always love you, or at least the idea of you in my mind.